I Just Feel Like..

Sister.

Those feelings overwhelm you.

Those fears surround your soul.

Those thoughts just keep racing and racing.

Chaos and doubt and fear.

 

You try to fight it.

You try to overcome them.

Maybe you try to distract yourself. Or try to run.

 

Or maybe, the longer they fester in your soul, you begin to believe them.

Is this a reality, now?

 

Oh, sister.

Cue the rawness and gut emotions.

Do you feel like God is going to leave you?

Do you feel like you’ve messed up too many times?

Do you feel like He’s angry and disappointed with you?

Do you feel like He’s done loving you?

Do you feel like you can’t come to Him?

 

Breathe.

I know that these fears and thoughts are strong and captivating and enslaving.

I know that you are crying to God for help.

 

But hear me:

This god that you are describing is not God.

This love that you are describing in not His Love.

That is not His voice.

 

That god, that voice, is false and fleeting and fake.

That’s not God.

 

I could tell you that the sky is pink.

My soul is screaming that it is, my mind believes it and the thought is wedged deeper in my soul than a nail in wood.

The sky is pink. It just is. I really just feel like it’s pink.

But that’s just absurd.

The sky is blue. It has always been blue; it will always be blue.

You can say it’s pink and feel that it’s pink and even believe it.. but that doesn’t change the fact that the sky is blue.

 

Sister,

I don’t know what god you are describing.

But just because you are caught up in fear and chaos and doubt, it doesn’t mean that God changes to fit your mold.

He is a God who is sovereign; He is steadfast and unchanging. He was, He is, and He is to come. He is the Beginning and the End. He is God.

 

Rejoice in that. Let your soul rest in that. Take heart,

God is God and there’s nothing we can do about it. We can’t mess it up. We can’t change Him.

We can’t hinder His power or frustrate His plans or end His love for us.

And I’m screaming hallelujah!

 

God told Moses to come atop the mountain. Moses was to bring two stones, freshly cut, for the re-writing of the commandments. No one could come with him, no one should be seen in the whole mountain, no herds could even graze opposite the mountain.

God descended from a cloud, stood there with Moses, and proclaimed His Name:

“The Lord, the Lord, a God merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness,  keeping steadfast love for thousands, forgiving iniquity and transgression and sin…

Exodus 34

 

This is who God is.

The Lord is gracious and merciful, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love.
The Lord is good to all, and his mercy is over all that he has made.

Psalm 145:8-9

 

Listen to what His love is,

Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude.

It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful;

it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth.

Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

Love never ends.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8a

 

Listen to what He says to you,

Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden,

and I will give you rest.

Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart,

and you will find rest for your souls.

For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

Matthew 11:28-30

 

God is gracious. God is merciful. God is slow to anger. God is abounding in love.

God is patient. God is kind.

His love bears all things. Believes all things. Hopes all things. Endures all things.

His love never ends.

 

Sister, sometimes your feelings are wrong.

That’s where faith comes in.

When you start to think that the sky is pink, you go outside and open those big, beautiful eyes to gaze at the blue expanse above your head.

Even if everything around you is screaming that God is going to leave you, forsake you, is disappointed and angry, is unfaithful and unloving….

You open up your Bible and let your heart soak in the Truth. And you don’t close those pages until your heart is on fire for your sweet Jesus.

 

For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds. We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God,

and take every thought captive to obey Christ…

2 Corinthians 10:5

 

Come on, divine power destroying those strongholds.

Sister, take every thought captive.

Take every thought and feeling to Christ Jesus.

Be transformed by the renewing of your mind.

He has made Himself known; God in the flesh of a man for the sake of reconciliation.

 

Spend time Him. Pour out your heart. Listen to Him.

That’s the way to get to know someone.

 

He says, “Come to me.”

His arms are open. His eyes are gracious. His words are piercing. His love is overflowing.

Sweetly for you.

 

With much, much love. And a fire to take every thought captive. –Melissa

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17 thoughts on “I Just Feel Like..

  1. Every evening after work on my way home, I talk to God. Tonight on my way home, I just didn’t know what to say. I even told Him that too, I felt guilty but I wasn’t sure what for. I felt like I’ve disappointed Him, and just didn’t feel worthy enough to say anything. I didn’t want to “bother” Him again with how I felt. I recently got out of a relationship, and automatically started getting back to my relationship with the Lord (I hate how I allow myself to slip in the first place). Throughout everything, God has been so loving, overwhelming me with His love…and yet I still feel like each time I reach out, I’m somehow bothering Him. I came home and read this email, with tears streaming down my face. And all my thoughts were right there, written before me, and right after that were God’s promises. I needed to be reminded. I needed the reassurance because sometimes it gets hard. I know I’m not alone, that God is always with me, but sometimes, being a single mom, I feel alone. And yet again, when I feel like this, God speaks to me, this time through you. So I thank God for you, for speaking to my soul. God bless you sister. This made my night ❤

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    1. Nadine,
      WOW what a glimpse as to how deep God’s love is for you!! Yes- you are never alone and He delights to hear your voice! A quote I saw on Pinterest- “Sometimes we think it’s a bother to constantly come to God.. really, the only bother is to never come to Him.”
      He says “COME!” He loves us and wants us near. Even if we are just rambling and confused… He is a Father who delights in His children! Thanks for your beautiful story and encouragement! Much love, sister!

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  2. Yes, we cannot live by our emotions. We walk by faith not by sight (or emotions). There are days I don’t feel saved but I know whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able to keep that which I committed……

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  3. I think this broken world is so convincing that we are not good and anything we think is false. And that God isn’t there. How sad is that. To believe that God isn’t there. He should be a best friend to us just like our closest girlfriends. We should act like he is as human as the person sitting next to us. He is going nowhere and He is a forever thing. Praises for that. Thank you so much for this post. Came at the best time.

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  4. I think this broken world is so convincing that we are not good and anything we think is false. And that God isn’t there. How sad is that. To believe that God isn’t there. He should be a best friend to us just like our closest girlfriends. We should act like he is as human as the person sitting next to us. He is going nowhere and He is a forever thing. Praises for that. Thank you so much for this post. Came at the best time.

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  5. Just beautiful!!!! Thank you!! I’ve spent 20 years trying to qualify – utter waste of time, I never will and of course He does the qualifying not me. However the voice of the Father of lies is persistent – this helps shut the door in his face. Bless you!!! Keep them coming!! X

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