I Don’t Feel Free


Those chains must be heavy.

Those shackles must be tight.

That weight on your shoulders must be crushing.

That rope must be wrangling.

I know.

They say you’re free but you feel more like a slave.

They say you’re a child but sometimes you feel like a servant.

They say you’re beloved but sometimes you feel undesired.

The weight of this world is heavy for the soul that doesn’t know Jesus.

And sometimes, just sometimes, it can be heavy for the one who does.

Oh sister, have you lost sight of the beautiful, the freeing and light blood of Jesus?


Maybe your life feels as heavy and guilty and shameful as before you met Jesus.

Maybe you’re being tempted and enticed to go back to that life.

Yeah, the pleasure from that life is instantaneous. You can feel the high and the pleasure and the tipsiness right away.

You get applaud from this world.

You feel pride and rebellious and cool.

Oh, sister.

Have you lost sight of the beautiful, the freeing and the light blood of Jesus?

Formerly, when you did not know God, you were enslaved to those that by nature are not gods.

But now that you have come to know God, or rather be known by God, how can you turn back again to the weak and worthless elementary principles of the world,

whose slaves you want to be once more?

Galatians 4:8-9


You were enslaved and chained down and taunted and tortured.

The devil had a grip on your heart and your mind and your life.

You were in the domain of darkness.

Separated by an eternal weight of God’s wrath because of your sin.


Oh, may your heart burst with joy and tears.

Now, you know God.

Now, in this very moment, in this heartbeat and breath and blink of an eye,

You are known by God.

Oh, yes, the God who, before He created the land and stars and strawberries and jaguars and Adam and Eve, loved you and chose you to be His.

Yes, the God who, before you sinned and rebelled and, before you got drunk and slept with him and lied and lusted, dreamt and finished redemption by His own blood.

Yes, the God who, when you were wandering and playing and dying in the domain of darkness, beautifully and faithfully pursued you, fought for you, and relentlessly desired your heart.

Yes, the God who, held his divine arms open wide and embraced your weary, ashamed, and broken heart, while gently and fiercely washing your dirt, washing your crimson stains into pure white.

You are deeply known by this God. You are burst into freedom by your God.

He is a star-breather and a mighty victor.

And He is so in love with you.

So why would you want to return to the weak and worthless elementary principles as slaves? Do you want to forsake the glory and love of God for a momentary and rather shallow satisfaction? Do you want, to once again, fall back into the pit of shame and guilt and a conscience in agony?

Sister, make your choice.

And if your choice is sweet Jesus, hear this in His gentle, fierce voice:

For freedom Christ has set us free. Stand firm, therefore, and do not submit again to a yolk of slavery.

Romans 5:1

And my strong-standing, Jesus-loving friend,

All chains are broken. All strongholds are snapped in two. All burdens are lifted.

So why do you have this standard that you feel you must live up to?

Perfect church attendance. Perfect morning devotion record. Perfect speech. Perfect Instagram verse posts. Perfect tone of voice when you say, “I’m good!” Perfect life. Perfect faith.

If you think you must be perfect, you are rebuilding the strongholds that Christ already broke down in your life. You are submitting again to the weak and elementary principles of this world.

Paul tells us that if we accept this religious standard of perfection, that Christ is of no advantage.

If you want to do it yourself, then the standard is perfection.

If you are in Christ, the standard is grace.

Listen, church attendance is going to count for nothing. Morning devotions are going to count for nothing. Bible verse posts will count for nothing.

They’re all just the gas to make the car go. What counts is the ride.

Girl, the only thing that counts for anything is “faith working through love.” Galatians 5:2-6

You already have Jesus.

Stop trying to earn Him. Stop trying to keep Him around and happy.

His blood is too precious and He loves you too dearly for that.

How dare we diminish the beauty and the rich value of Christ’s blood by our weak and worthless elementary principle of perfection.

You are saved by grace.

You are saved by grace through faith.

And this is a gift of God.

Not by works, so no one can boast.

Sister who is chained by temptation. Sister who is chained by perfection.

Wandering sister. Forgetful sister. Far-off sister. Beloved sister.

You have forgotten your first love.

Return to Jesus.

May I sweetly remind you of the beautiful, the freeing, the light blood of Jesus.

He says,

Come to me,

all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart,

and you will find rest for your souls.

For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.

Matthew 11:28-30

You are no longer suffocating. You are no longer wrangled, chained and burdened.

You are no longer held by the devil’s slimy grip to the weak and worthless elementary principles.

You are no longer enslaved to religious perfect and works.

You, my dear sister, are freed by the sweet blood of Jesus.

You have a new name.

It’s Beloved.

Embrace your freedom with joy deeper than the sea and power brighter than the sun.

Your face is radiant as you are gazin’ upon Him.

Abide in the light of His freedom.

With much, much love. And a deep allegiance to freedom. –Melissa


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15 replies to “I Don’t Feel Free

  1. You did it again and I can’t thank you enough! Your words came to life for me in this post and I really really needed to read this at the very second I did. I was weak and broken. I was scared and overwhelmed by anxiety. I felt like a slave, I felt undesired, I felt like I would never be good enough. Your post brought so much happiness, joy, and peace to me. It allowed me to truly let go of my anxiety and trust in the Lord. It is such an amazing and freeing feeling and I can’t thank you enough for this post. I know you are inspiring so many other individuals besides myself, and I encourage you to keep following the Lord and making a difference to so many people. Much love and continued prayers for you! -Your Sister in Christ

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    1. Ashlyn,
      WOW this is amazing! Yes, an amazing freeing feeling to let it all go and give it all to God! He cares for us- He cares for YOU, my sister! Stay close to Him.. close enough to hear His voice. He loves you! Thank you for your encouragement! Much love!


  2. Oh my goodness, I love your blog so very much. Thank you for sharing these truths today! I’ve been on the quest to find more freedom and joy lately through the call to “make space” for God. I’d love some more accountability over at unmentionablesblog.wordpress.com if you’d like to focus more on simplicity and grace this year, too. 🙂 I love your style, thank you for this truth on freedom and all that you do!

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    1. Awh I am so glad that you enjoyed this post! Yes- I am with you in that quest. I love the phrase you use… “make space.” Simple and powerful! Love your blog… I’m sure God is so pleased in your words of Him, my friend!! Keep it up, you are showing the love and grace of Jesus!! Much love, my new friend!


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