Loving Jesus. But, Living In Sin.

My sweet sister.

I get it.

It’s hard. It’s enticing. It’s strong.

It’s a part of your lifestyle.

Deep down, you feel the guilt.

Deep down, you know your shame.

You want to stop, but you wouldn’t even know where to start.

Hear me.

You are so loved.

Every single part of you. Even down to the deepest cracks in your heart.

You are loved.

You are prayed for. You are sung over.

You are prized.

So, my friend, let’s talk.

Let’s talk about sin.

It’s a three letter word that I don’t like hearing, but don’t hear enough.

Sometimes, I hate living in America because our culture has normalized and embraced and even praised sin.

Having sex with strangers. Getting drunk. Cheating the system. Stealing. Rebelling against parents. Using the name of “Jesus Christ” as a cuss word. Habitually watching porn. Cheating in relationships.

And sometimes I hate how American church communities, having been influenced by our culture, have normalized and accepted different types of sin:

Worrying about our future. Being greedy with our blessings. Making idols of marriage and kids and work. Believing that religious activities save us.

Listen, my sister.

Sin killed the only One who has looked on me with pure love.

Sin killed the only One who has pursued me through the ages.

Sin killed the only One who my heart burns with passion for.

I hate sin.

God hates sin.

Hates it.

Sometimes, when people are struggling with sin, I hear people saying, “It’s okay…”

I’ve told it to people.

I’ve been told it.

But hear me: No, it’s not okay.

Sin killed our sweet Jesus. It’s not okay.

There’s abounding grace and a beautiful redemption.

It’s forgiven. It’s paid in full.

But it’s not okay.

In the American church, there are so many wrong themes of the cross.

Sometimes, we use the cross as a means of self-help, making our hearts feel better about our brokenness.

My sweet Jesus was not nailed to a cross for me to feel good about my brokenness, for my hurting heart to feel comforted, for my guilt to be pleasantly balmed.

Sometimes, we use the cross as a means of manufacturing a trail mix type of love, one that demands no response and that we can pick and choose when we want it.

My sweet Jesus was not nailed to a cross for me to periodically acknowledge that there is always someone there who loves me, while still living in my sin.

And sometimes, we look at the man on the cross and are utterly unmoved. We regard it in vain and as folly.

My sweet Jesus was not nailed to a cross, killed and crucified, for me to, in vain, praise and utter His name as Lord and Savior while denying Him and continually nailing Him back to the cross with my sin.

My sweet Jesus was crucified to set me free from my sin.

Spurgeon once said,

“Look to the cross, and hate your sin. For sin nailed your well beloved to the tree.”

Sin nailed my sweet Jesus to a tree.

I hate those nails. I hate that old wooden cross that killed him.

But what I must always remind my heart of, is that the nails and old wood didn’t kill Jesus.

As if pieces of scrap metal and some old wood could keep the Son of God hanging.

My sin kept Him there. My sin held my precious Savior to that cross.

His love held Him there.

I hate my sin.

I love His love.

On a softer note, hear this, my sister:

I think so often, and even unintentionally, our minds wander to feeling like God is angry with us, that He is mad and disappointed.

And because of that, we feel like we reallyyyyy messed up. Like we are done for it. Like we are unworthy, unloveable.. just too screwed up.

But this is the thing:

God’s heart for your repentance from sin isn’t a heart of a dictator, of an authority who makes demands of you to conform to his way.

No, no, my sister, God’s heart behind his desire for you to repent is because your sin is going to kill you. He loves you.

Yes, He loves you more than you even love yourself.

He sees you playing in trash and dirt and grit. He sees that it’s not only bad for your soul, but that it’s going to kill you.

So He, in a loving, Fatherly, passionate and desperate voice says, “Repent.”

Repent, He loves you.

Repent, He’s calling you out of the dirt.

Repent, He’s better and sweeter and filled with more joy.

Repent, my sister, He has always loved you.

When we understand that the voice that speaks the word, “repent” is not an angry dictator, but rather a loving Father who desires your good, with all He is… it changes everything.

Suddenly, repentance isn’t such a dark and religious word.

Suddenly, it’s a beautiful and healthy and desired gift from our Father.

He died so you can repent.

He died so you can come out the dirt and grime and slum…. Into His love, His grace, His fullness of joy.

Oh sister, He died to set you free from the slavery of sin. No more guilt. No more shame.

You are no longer held captive by a devil who’s leading you astray.

Your chains are broken. The shackles are undone.

You, my friend, are a child of God.

He’s not mad at us. He’s not even disappointed. He’s not angry; He’s not giving up on us and slamming the door.

Rather, He is still looking on us with eyes full of love, with a heart that desires more good for us than we even do ourselves, saying, “My grace covers you.. My grace covers you.”

And that grace, what a beautiful thing.

We are so undeserving. He is so kind.

His kindness leads us to repentance.

His kindness leads us to repentance.

My sister, I want to be as blunt and brutal as I can be right now:

Sharp, rusty pieces of scrap metal pierced through the flesh and veins of your sweet Jesus, blood gushing down.

A jagged and sharp spear was thrust into his ribcage, spewing out blood in a pool.

Yet even then, He cried in the last gasps of breath he had, “Forgive them.”

Your forgiveness has come at a beautifully devastating price.

It was never free.

His grace is costly. His grace is beautiful. His grace is lavished and lavished upon you.

By His wounds you are healed.

Repent, my sister.

For He is alive.

With much, much love. And a plea to dwell in righteousness. –Melissa

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167 replies to “Loving Jesus. But, Living In Sin.

    1. Thank you. I shared this on my page. It’s so true everything you said. Why is it that Christians can think they can get away with it….no one gets a ways with it. Repenting is not just words, its a change of heart, lifestyle, developing fruit in your life. We all can repent. I have many times, and went back to the same ol same old…until I got sick and tired of being sick and tired of my ways, and took on His ways. We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us” We can only change through Him. Bless you.

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      1. Deborah,
        Yes, thank you for sharing what’s on your heart. Reminds me a quote I just saw- “Legalistic remorse says that you broke God’s law, but true repentance says that you broke God’s heart.” His kindness leads us to repentance.. and His love is unconditional! What love is found in Him! Much love to you, my friend!


  1. I absolutely love this! It was broke down and beautifully written! Except for one point you said that sometimes you may mess up to the point you feel unworthy! Whether you mess up or not no one is worthy of what Jesus did for us! He died so we didn’t have to! Other than that it was GREAT!!

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      1. Very convicting! I have been struggling myself with not wanting to change ..my diet, routine, not reading my bible enough frankly struggling ti read the whole thing without interruption.. My goal and I’m sure its the Lords as well is to deny myself to put others first..winnung of souls is priority lives are on the line..need prayer thank you 💝

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  2. Thank you for this! I’m living in sin and I just prayed for repentance! I keep living in sin and try not to but I’m tempted and always fail! I need prayers to it fall again!

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    1. Valerie,
      That’s amazing! Sister I am praying for you! In 1 Corinthians 10:13, Paul writes that God will never let us to tempted beyond what we can bear… God will always give us a way to endure it! You can do this in the strength and the grace of Jesus! His strength is enough and His mercies are new every morning. Much love!!


    2. I say this is love. If you repented and accepted Jesus than whether or not you’re still sinning you are saved. Declare your salvation, focus on His gift, not your sin. Let Him work in you.

      To say you keep failing is to look to yourself for what Jesus has already done. In these moments know you’re covered in Grace – keep looking to Him, not you.

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  3. You have a beautiful way with words.
    It was with great delight I was able to say, YES! I AM THE RIGHTEOUSNESS IN CHRIST! as you push us forward into righteousness.

    Knowing in my heart that I am forever saved. Forever will He delight in me.

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  4. Please pray for the Melissa in my life…Melissa June gave birth to my great grandson, Nolan…She and Nolan’s daddy Dylan (my grandson) are not married but live together. I pray for all three of them without ceasing, along with the rest of my children and grandchildren.
    Thank you and God bless you for the powerful insight and sharing of
    Loving Jesus, But living in sin.
    Each of us must examine our own heart with the eyes of our Savior.

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    1. Shelby,
      What a beautiful heart you have- God hears each and every one of those prayers for your children and grandchildren. He is faithful to move in and through those prayers. Keep praying, and I will pray with you. Much love to you!!


  5. Love Love LOVE this! I want everyone I know to read it! You have a real gift, my Dear…. Continue using it for God’s Glory and the furtherance of His kingdom! Love and blessings to you

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  6. Amen! Thank you for your bluntness. There ar people in my church living together who thing they will go to heaven. No sin will enter heaven and this is sin. I’m sharing this on my fb page.


    1. Susan,
      I am so glad that you enjoyed this. There is abundant mercy and love in God for them- they are welcomed, just as they are, to come to Jesus and He alone will change their heart… through His kindness. Thanks for being so intentional about showing them God’s love- may God bless your words and love to them!


  7. Just because everybody else is doing it does not make it right. As Christians we need to let the light of Christ shine through in our lives. Our speech, daily activities, and way of life is being watched by the world. Our time on earth is short. Make the most of it! Thank you, Jesus, for giving your life that I might live eternally with you.

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    1. Ruth, yes, how encouraging! Our time is short… may we give it all to God. Like you said, our words, our daily activities, our lives! May we do everything for His glory! Keep shining for Him. Light shines into the darkness & wins, everytime. Much love!


  8. Reblogged this on His Banner Over Me is Love and commented:
    These days, to be honest, I have been so bitter at God.
    I had been so faithful, yet the more faithful I am, the more spiritual warfare, the more I was afflicted.
    I said, “LORD, I am done. let me go, I will live as I want.”
    and I did. I didn’t desire Him, and I didn’t feel sorry about it.
    I was fine.
    I was having a good time.

    And one day,
    I suddenly felt empty, no matter how many pleasures I indulged myself in, at the end of the day, when the night comes, I felt insecure, I felt lost.
    I tried reading the Bible but nothing came through.
    I was alone.

    He told me, “You do not desire My Presence.”
    “You do not believe that I am good to you, that’s why you do not want me.”

    Tears running down my cheek all the hurts came rushing back.
    “Yes LORD, I do not believe that you are good.”

    Again he said,
    “I am the Living God.”
    “I am the LORD.”
    “Come back…”

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  9. This was beautifully written. A call to turn from our impotent self love to the One Who loves us Best. Stay in a His Presence and keep writing to encourage others to do the same. Blessings.

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  10. Amen!! Love the words and message! Blessed my heart and was just what I needed to hear at the end of my busy day. My God bless you my dear sister in Christ.

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  11. Do you know what the best part of this piece of writing was? There was no finger pointing to the sun you were talking about.

    That is love. Thank you for expressing God’s love that he has for us by your example through your writing.

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  12. I just wanted to let you know how perfect this timing was..
    I’m sitting here debating what I’m going to do tonight. And part of my “lifestyle” that I’ve been trying to move from keeps coming back. And as I was sitting here, I was coming up with reasons it was ok. But deep down I know it’s keeping me from growing in Christ.

    And then I read your blog. And I’m going to make the right decision. Sin is sin. It’s attractive. It’s exciting. And at times, it feels right. It feels like it’s who I am.

    But it isn’t who I am. I belong to Christ. And I am set free.

    Thank. You.

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  13. This was hard to read, and beautiful, and affirming to read. I have been this woman a lot during my journey with the Lord. But, the longer I journey with this Precious One that I love so much, the more I want to please Him above all others. In my thoughts, responses, actions, desires and motives. Even with his restoring love in my life, I have to check my flesh daily. Thanks for letting me share. Eileen – if you happen to read this, I want to thank you again for praying for me so long and faithfully. I love you. 😌

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    1. Wow, so beautifully said! I love what you wrote about how the longer you journey with Jesus, the more you desire Him over all other things. It’s a change of heart, not just modified behavior. He loves you, my friend, keep walking hand in hand with Him!


  14. What wonderful and passionate words. And all of them are true. I fell from the ministry eight years ago. Now, I run a ministry to help those who fall and those affected by a fall. So many people are constantly trying to walk a line between being in Christ and living in sin. But there is no line, it is disobedience.

    Your post is profound and brings together the truth of sin, the need of repentance and grace. Thank you.

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    1. Ray,
      Thank you so much!! What an amazing ministry… I pray that God blesses it and uses it in for His Kingdom in ways we can’t fathom. It’s all for Him…. and none is in vain. Not even the smallest thing. Blessings!!!


  15. Jesus may be a real person but the stories and “god” are myth. The Bible is just an anthology of myths. I’m living in sin and proud of it. People like you are the reason atheists like myself don’t like religion. Too preachy and holier than thou


    1. I feel you- I grew up as an atheist and used to say the same thing. Thanks for sharing your perspective- I genuinely appreciate your honesty. Your kind responses are always welcome. If you ever want to talk about who Jesus is, let me know. His love is more powerful than any sin, than any wall, than any fear or frustration.


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