This is a hard one to write.
There are tears in my eyes, and a deep, sharp pain in my heart.
I have a raw, desperate cry for Jesus’ comfort.
Because He said go, but I don’t want to.
Because He said go, but it’s really hard.
Because He said go, but it hurts.
But He said “Go.” So I say, “Yes.”
I call Jesus Christ, “Lord.”
So when He says, “go” you better believe I will go
I want to be like Jonah. I want to run the other direction.
I want to be back with my sweet family. I want my authentic community. And I want to be in my hometown. I want familiarity; I want comfort.
But I know that my sweet, sweet Jesus loves me greatly.
And I know that love requires that He stretch my deeply.
Jesus is more concerned about my character than my comfort.
Jesus wants me to be like Him. He wants me to rely completely on Him. He wants me to grow closer to Him.
So if this is what it takes, then Yes.
I will say yes.
I don’t want to, but yes.
It’s really, really hard, but yes.
It hurts, but yes.
And suddenly, Jesus’ presence overwhelms my heart. Suddenly, He makes me brave. Suddenly, He strengthens my heart. And gives me peace.
Because The Lord loves His children.
Friends, if we call Jesus Christ, “Lord,” then we have the privilege of obedience.
Friends, if we pray, “Let Your kingdom come,” then we claim radical abandonment to ours.
Dear brothers and sisters, if we love Jesus, then we say, “yes.”
Whatever your heart is begging you to go “Jonah-style” and run the other direction from, I want to lovingly remind you that: Jesus Christ is Lord. And that Jesus Christ loves you. SO, go. or do. or stay. or wait. Whatever He is calling you to, say yes.
He will be there,walking the exact path with you. And when you can’t walk, He will carry you. You can trust Him, for He is good. You can trust Him, for He loves us.
Sweetly broken and wholly surrendered.
With much, much love. -Melissa