After a day of Black Friday shopping filled with a quest for the perfect brown boots, plaid scarves, ripped boyfriend jeans, and chunky- but not heavy sweaters, I found myself with some pretty cute outfits that would be perfect for a day downtown and a trendy insta pic.
But when I came before my sweet Jesus in prayer, I felt as though it all faded. It all disappeared. It all turned to dust beneath my feet.
My sweet Jesus doesn’t see my by my new, fall- ready outfit, but rather my sweet Jesus sees my heart.
And let me tell you, I did not feel like my heart was as beautiful as I felt I was dressed.
I examined my heart, and found it clouded with materialism- full of clothing and shoes and styles as idols.
I found it striving after having the perfect look and the perfect shape in envy and self-dissatisfaction.
I found it clinging to the idea of a perfect-looking lifestyle, one with the aesthetic instagram profile showing a life of new cafes and trendy scenes.
I found bitterness. I found pride. I found idolatry.
I found my heart seeking after other things, rather than my sweet Jesus. Things that seem to glitter now, but will return to dust before the feet of our sweet Lord.
It sounds cliche, but He examines our heart. Not our instagram. Not our home. Not our closet.
I want a heart full of love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, and self-control. Not materialism, bitterness, and envy.
I want a heart that delights in my sweet Jesus.
And Him alone.
Because when we are standing before our Lord Jesus, everything that glittered here on earth will rapidly turn to dust beneath our feet.
When we look into the eyes of Jesus, I feel His intense adoration for me. Not my clothes, not my style, but for me.
How beautiful that we have a Savior who adores our hearts. Nothing less and nothing more.
I want a heart that my sweet Jesus finds pleasing.
One that finds my treasure in Heaven.
One that finds my beauty in His Word.
Even if that means forsaking this 21st century life.
SO friends, let’s come before our sweet Jesus and ask Him to create us in a pure heart. Let’s ask Him to refocus our eyes on Him and His Kingdom. Let’s ask Him to fulfill our hearts with His overwhelming, gracious love so they no longer thirst for the things of this world. Let’s strive to have beautiful hearts, rather than beautiful things: a heart that our sweet Lord finds ever so beautiful.
Create me in a pure heart, oh God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Psalm 51:10
With much, much love. -Melissa